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blathered on a lot about my mushroom experiences but the "voice" aspect of it seems to disappear on June 12, 2007 and haven't "heard much back" from these voices which while always loving, wise and supportive beyond my imaginings, I am not unhappy to live without them permanently in my head - "heard" as an alien strain of thought within my own mind, not as a full blown auditory hallucination which I have also heard on mushrooms and that is different from "the voices", heard as though someone is speaking aloud right next to you.
When I heard these voices for a about a two month period in the spring of 07, they addressed themselves intensely to my emotional life basically healing me at many levels and I first - and perhaps still this is the simpliest explanation - I thought well it's perfectly reasonable they are haning around so long, there's a hell of lot in here to fix, right? And 99 percent of what they "said" was in support and direction for my own healing, not always sunny and happy, they had teeth, too.
I had told them, DO whatever it takes, get me to the other side
careful what you ask for, right?
Anyway, the only time after these "voices" left in June of 07 that I "heard" a voice, it was of the auditory hallucination type and I at first I thought my wife had spoken sitting only a few feet away - you know, like trying to be funny maybe, using a funny voice? I had been reading book when I heard, "The machine has descended upon you now, may god help you all" - sent appropriate icy chills through my body especially as I realized that it was not my wife saying - book I was reading nothing about this kind of thing at all? Not even on my conscious mind? This was about 7PM, Feb12, 2008.
I believe in 07 that what I mistook for "voices" was in fact an "entity" (dear god wish i had a better word) sharing my consciousness. This entity early in the experience identified itself verbatim: I am The New Creature. I am here to save the biosphere.
Blew my mind, man. Now after much consideration, I believe that this auditory hallucination in Feb 08 was a kind of update from this New Creature and (It) communicated not as a thought in my head but as an auditory hallucination because the New Creature is not IN my head, having "left" on June 12, 2007. In effect, this was the first time that I had ever "heard" the voice of the New Creature as something other than a thought in my own mind. It sounded like a stranger's voice to me.
Now, I don't want to argue this part, but the great mother of us all has communicated to me a couple times in the manner of a alien strain of thought and once as a powerful auditory hallucination at a personally desperate hour - and trust me, if I live for all eternity - oh yea, I will - I will never forget or mistake the voice of the great mother of us all and this night it was most definately not her voice
clearly a male voice?
So nothing again really until last year, 2010, looking out in the summer across surrounding alpine fields and thing that it sure would be nice to be able to get the couple plots around us all as one holding, then, thinking, sipping morning coffee at the north railing, we don't need it and it would be better to spend resources of lots of other things at this point
then, as if interupting my thoughts with an important point, another voice that I do not recognize but perceive as vageuly female whisperes evenly, "you will need room for the others" . Funny, I keep getting this kind of thing - like beyond my primary mission of opening my heart, I am requested to be some kind of "housekeeper" or provider? Well, did originally get a degree in Hotel Motel Management that here I always thought was a stupendous waste?
But recently, an inner voice, much like in 07 even though have not taken mushrooms in years and do not really intend to in the future, but this voice keeps replaying two things,
I NEED HELP
MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING SO FAST
The first appears simply to be myself uttering a truth, I feel very much like I need some help. I am caught up in a personal battle for me of epic preportions and have been especially lost in my own pain, like a man lost in the throes of physical torture. In both of these things that keep popping into my mind even now just at odd and random moments but repeatedly, the my god it's happening so fast part does not really ring a bell personally - I feel exactly the opposite personally, I want to claw my way out of my skin I feel we are moving so slowly - but both of these are communications again from this New Creature.
Now really weird - the communication in Feb 08 had some real emotion in it and made me realize now in retrospection, it actually said a lot about this New Creature and how things are going. There was a sadness and resignation in the voice - also a maturity - "the machine has descended upon you now, may god help you all. And a sadness. One thing I noticed in dealing during the extended 07 period with what I thought was a mushroom voice was they the voice while as wise as perhaps one might expect, as profound, as loving, as integrative - the "voice or entity" had a certain immaturity often picked up in that the voice was like say an idealistic aristocrats kid who never knew a bad thing or bad day in their whole life and who was honest and smart and all that - I imagine they might have a hard time if dumped out on the mean streets as say this New Creature was in the summer of 2007?
Breaks my heart. What I do respond to in that message of things happenings so fast is that something very bad is about to happen and once the trigger is pulled, I believe that we will all collectively be thinking
MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING SO FAST
I NEED HELP
When I heard these voices for a about a two month period in the spring of 07, they addressed themselves intensely to my emotional life basically healing me at many levels and I first - and perhaps still this is the simpliest explanation - I thought well it's perfectly reasonable they are haning around so long, there's a hell of lot in here to fix, right? And 99 percent of what they "said" was in support and direction for my own healing, not always sunny and happy, they had teeth, too.
I had told them, DO whatever it takes, get me to the other side
careful what you ask for, right?
Anyway, the only time after these "voices" left in June of 07 that I "heard" a voice, it was of the auditory hallucination type and I at first I thought my wife had spoken sitting only a few feet away - you know, like trying to be funny maybe, using a funny voice? I had been reading book when I heard, "The machine has descended upon you now, may god help you all" - sent appropriate icy chills through my body especially as I realized that it was not my wife saying - book I was reading nothing about this kind of thing at all? Not even on my conscious mind? This was about 7PM, Feb12, 2008.
I believe in 07 that what I mistook for "voices" was in fact an "entity" (dear god wish i had a better word) sharing my consciousness. This entity early in the experience identified itself verbatim: I am The New Creature. I am here to save the biosphere.
Blew my mind, man. Now after much consideration, I believe that this auditory hallucination in Feb 08 was a kind of update from this New Creature and (It) communicated not as a thought in my head but as an auditory hallucination because the New Creature is not IN my head, having "left" on June 12, 2007. In effect, this was the first time that I had ever "heard" the voice of the New Creature as something other than a thought in my own mind. It sounded like a stranger's voice to me.
Now, I don't want to argue this part, but the great mother of us all has communicated to me a couple times in the manner of a alien strain of thought and once as a powerful auditory hallucination at a personally desperate hour - and trust me, if I live for all eternity - oh yea, I will - I will never forget or mistake the voice of the great mother of us all and this night it was most definately not her voice
clearly a male voice?
So nothing again really until last year, 2010, looking out in the summer across surrounding alpine fields and thing that it sure would be nice to be able to get the couple plots around us all as one holding, then, thinking, sipping morning coffee at the north railing, we don't need it and it would be better to spend resources of lots of other things at this point
then, as if interupting my thoughts with an important point, another voice that I do not recognize but perceive as vageuly female whisperes evenly, "you will need room for the others" . Funny, I keep getting this kind of thing - like beyond my primary mission of opening my heart, I am requested to be some kind of "housekeeper" or provider? Well, did originally get a degree in Hotel Motel Management that here I always thought was a stupendous waste?
But recently, an inner voice, much like in 07 even though have not taken mushrooms in years and do not really intend to in the future, but this voice keeps replaying two things,
I NEED HELP
MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING SO FAST
The first appears simply to be myself uttering a truth, I feel very much like I need some help. I am caught up in a personal battle for me of epic preportions and have been especially lost in my own pain, like a man lost in the throes of physical torture. In both of these things that keep popping into my mind even now just at odd and random moments but repeatedly, the my god it's happening so fast part does not really ring a bell personally - I feel exactly the opposite personally, I want to claw my way out of my skin I feel we are moving so slowly - but both of these are communications again from this New Creature.
Now really weird - the communication in Feb 08 had some real emotion in it and made me realize now in retrospection, it actually said a lot about this New Creature and how things are going. There was a sadness and resignation in the voice - also a maturity - "the machine has descended upon you now, may god help you all. And a sadness. One thing I noticed in dealing during the extended 07 period with what I thought was a mushroom voice was they the voice while as wise as perhaps one might expect, as profound, as loving, as integrative - the "voice or entity" had a certain immaturity often picked up in that the voice was like say an idealistic aristocrats kid who never knew a bad thing or bad day in their whole life and who was honest and smart and all that - I imagine they might have a hard time if dumped out on the mean streets as say this New Creature was in the summer of 2007?
Breaks my heart. What I do respond to in that message of things happenings so fast is that something very bad is about to happen and once the trigger is pulled, I believe that we will all collectively be thinking
MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING SO FAST
I NEED HELP
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Re: So many voices, so little time ...
Sat, December 3, 2011 - 11:15 PMAll sounds so familiar.
For me it was the 1980s and there were no drugs involved in the beginning. In fact I tried to make the voices stop by smoking an unethical amount of weed......didn't help.
My thought is that the mushrooms in your case opened the conduit, if I may use that word.
My reasoning was to confirm the voice owner as real and separate from myself.
A small series of tests to confirm. Not prophesy so much as knowing certain things that I could confirm. An example was my flatmates brought some fellows home one night. they played music, talked and the fellows went home. The girls went to bed. When all was quiet the voice spoke requesting the door be shut. Again the voice demanded I shut the door. Initially, I dismissed the voice as an aspect of my own conciousness and as I was obviously on the edge of sleep I wasn't doing anything and basically told it so.
I felt a hand grab my rib cage and stand me upright. A really freaky experience in itself especially when compounded with definite "SHUT THE DOOR!" in my mind.
I responded with "the fucking door is shut!" speaking of my bedroom door.
I "felt" the response 'not that door'.
Curiosity took over at that point and I moved into the hall. I looked at each door in turn, the bathroom, kitchen, other bedrooms, backdoor, all with the same response 'not that door'.
When i looked at the front door, there was silence. I walked to the door and looked closer at it. Everything appeared to be in place. Nothing was wrong. I woke my flatmate from her slumber and took her to the door, asking if she was the one who showed her visitors out. She nodded.
I leaned on the lock of the door and we heard a loud click as the door closed properly. A change of pressure in the stairway beyond could have opened the door while myself and my two ladies slept.
The following day we confirmed that the door needed maintenance and I fixed the lock.
This was only one of the times the voices have interfered in my life. The last time was a doozy and I am still obeying that last command.
It was to meet and marry my present wife. A beautiful woman who two weeks after we met began a journey that could only be described as nightmare stuff. Neither of us had intended to go to that party and the intervention that had been involved to make it happen is the stuff of Hollywood legend, Prime directive, my arse!
She would have been dead within five years of that meeting if it had not occurred. We both know it as do her children. One of which could easily have followed her to death.
I didn't want this life and I am still begging for release as it is not enjoyable. But is the begging for release from a war that I feel and a war it is. Someone on the other side, either dimensionally or terrestrially or both, needs her to be alive and I have been brought in to keep her here. My life that I had planned means nothing to them and my real abilities remain wasted as I struggle in the mundain world.
But THEY proved their existence and they proved their ability to manipulate this world for their benefit using the tool of their choice....Me.
The first thing you must do is prove the voices are separate and this must be done with witness. A series of tests will prove without doubt, then find out what they want, lift your feet up and flow with the current, because if your voices are from the same source as mine, you have no choice.
Oh and if they start saying KILL KILL! tell them to fuck off. -
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Re: So many voices, so little time ...
Sun, December 4, 2011 - 4:22 AMpin prick in eternity, this life - not much consolation sometimes when the wolves are eating you alive
no worries about negative messages
not so concerned with verification as with understanding this conundrum that goes on and on - voices pretty much gone in June of 07, was driving to indian restaurant and the voices said, "You are Done" and I felt a wash of love over my whole body like a long hug. I "listened" as I ate but was pretty sure that they were gone - now, an echo of something from the past, maybe, when I catch something here and there?
what you say about your wife is so profound and I feel a little of that - kind of thought I would contribute by writing or something but seems I am called to provide housing for someone I do not even know? But I told the great mother of us that my life was for her now, not just my self, so I asked for it and I follow gratefully this path wherever it may lead
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